Jen here....

This mood. A computer. And a quiet house.

This might not be good.

I have the sighs. I can't seem to shake this melancholy mood and the homemade marshmallow sundae (with sprinkles) didn't touch it. Again, this might not be good.

There are umpteen fifty things that I should be doing right now, things that will be waiting for me tomorrow. And still it is this mood, a computer, and a quiet house. Accomplishing nothing, not even helping to chase the sighs away, not forming a thought worth thinking or good enough to make you think on it either.

I can't eat this mood away. I don't drink, but I don't think that booze would touch it either. I don't feel like pulling out photos, the paper slicer and double stick tape. I don't feel like reading. I don't feel like watching a movie. I don't feel like anything but sitting here at this computer and sighing.

And darned if I have the first thing to say.

I know that every letter, every character that appears on my computer screen is not filling the pit that the sighs are coming from. I need to make a list of things that I am thankful for... divert my attention from self and put it on God and the blessings that He has given me. Time to put hinds feet on high places...

~ Jesus

~ Jesus

(I am doubly blessed by Him, so I listed Him twice).

~ Jesus

(I find that the more I think on Him, the less empty I feel)

OK, so listing my blessings was a good thing. Somehow, I feel like if I list the usual "Husband, Kids, Home, Food, Clothing" thankfulness items, right now I will be listing them in spite of my mood. But Jesus? He just is. He is the blessing in my life that I cannot feel like "Well He is there, I shouldn't be sighing."

He IS. If I think on Him then... there is a fullness there.

Bah! I am an idiot. I came to my computer looking to be filled. And I talked it out... what you are reading is what went through my mind and out of my finger tips.... and wound up finding my answer the hard way.

I came to this ridiculous piece of machinery and Jesus met me here and eased my spirit. When am I going to learn to take my sighs, and my burdens, and my pathetic moods to Him first? But praise God that He will find me right where I am and minister to each of my needs.

Thank you Jesus.